DAY 1 : Getting ready by eating and drinking everything in sight.

I am keeping a blog of my 'weight loss journey' (as they say ad nauseum on reality shows) because I am pretty much throwing my weight behind this endeavour with everything I have (pun intended).

I am not expecting anyone to read it or give a shit; I am simply writing this experience day-by-day for my own benefit and accountability. And to keep my sense of humour alive whilst attempting a kind of 'in-the-moment' mindfulness.

I figure if I make it public then I am likely to be more accountable. (I do tend towards starting things and then retreating and choosing to hide under the covers of my doona until the guilt passes...)

I have made a simple chart outlining the next few months until Xmas and have added in calorie intake, weight-loss meditation and visualisation sessions, basic exercise, and when I am due to listen to the Psychology of Eating podcast.

I am going to get daily motivational tips from the Optifast website (which acts like an on-line Over-eaters Anonymous sponsor) and I now have an iPhone which I have loaded with all my fave music plus exercise music podcasts.

Last, but not least, yesterday I spent the day polishing off all the food and wine in the house so there's nothing left. And we have no money, so there will be nothing in the fridge for awhile.

I am only weighing myself once a week and my focus is on how I feel instead. Also how my clothes feel. I do not hate myself or the way I look so I believe I have a healthy plan for myself based on health needs and choices. It's about feeling good and being healthy.

I am also not going to kill myself with exercise because that will only lead to failure. At 45 years-old, I certainly know what doesn't work for me, even if I am still to find what does. As I said, the focus is on feeling good both physically and mentally. Also, I have damaged my coccyx quite severely by falling on it on a tiled floor (2nd time in two years) and so I will be gently exercising and doing special yoga stretches to relieve the pain of this.

I am starting this endeavour now as it is the school holidays and I am a teacher so it gives me the head-space to think for a change about my own needs instead of 100 other people in my day and week.

Pic One: An illustrated interpretation of the next 96 days of hell...

Pic Two: Me hiding in bed with bed hair, no make-up, and wondering what the fuck I am thinking doing this ridiculous diet AND BLOGGING ABOUT IT!!!!?????



Well, here it is folks and neighbours! I have eaten and got pissed (all in a good cause, you understand...) on everything in sight and so now it's time to begin!

Tune in (or not) for the first real installment of No Fun Til Xmas!!! xxxx